i see everything turns not right. my feels. my condition. i know you cant see anything but i feel its weird. God am i way too far from you? or am i off limit?or am i annoying.. i only wishing for hapiness for my parents and me my self right now. happy is easy but hard to feel. i dont know what exactly i feel. i feel strange. i cant get any critic from people. i cant get any advice.. cause i feel they're not giving the best for me. right exactly now my dad was mad at me because of manythings and the hurt one he said i bought a bad influence to my brother who turns to be teenager but he's in not good way now. well stop about the problem cause its family business but now i feel so damn hurt. i feel im no use again in this world. but i cant die like this. this sin... i cant. i wont.
schools are fine i guess. even somethimes is way too hard, but its my choices. science program... i feel im not even study hard yet.. im just 1 percent trying i guess. i dont know where to go now,i dont know what to do seriously i dont know.. i want a better me seriously ya Allah. whats happen to me.
ya Allah aku pengen ngerasain masa masa bahagia waktu dulu semuanya gak sesusah ini dipikir, mau memilih aja susah menurutku sekarang. Aku bahagia dengan beberaapa orang ya Allah tapi aku tidak tahu apa mereka baik untukku dan aku baik untuk mereka lagi atau tidak.. Semuanya terasa dingin ya Allah, dingin karena aku gabisa ngerasain bahagia yang sesungguhnya lagi.. apalagi abis dimarahin gini, aku gatau lagi ya Allah
tapi udahlah, its a brand new day right?sekarang berubah sah. kapan lagi kalo gak sekarang?:")
schools are fine i guess. even somethimes is way too hard, but its my choices. science program... i feel im not even study hard yet.. im just 1 percent trying i guess. i dont know where to go now,i dont know what to do seriously i dont know.. i want a better me seriously ya Allah. whats happen to me.
ya Allah aku pengen ngerasain masa masa bahagia waktu dulu semuanya gak sesusah ini dipikir, mau memilih aja susah menurutku sekarang. Aku bahagia dengan beberaapa orang ya Allah tapi aku tidak tahu apa mereka baik untukku dan aku baik untuk mereka lagi atau tidak.. Semuanya terasa dingin ya Allah, dingin karena aku gabisa ngerasain bahagia yang sesungguhnya lagi.. apalagi abis dimarahin gini, aku gatau lagi ya Allah
tapi udahlah, its a brand new day right?sekarang berubah sah. kapan lagi kalo gak sekarang?:")
i dont know where to go
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