Selasa, 29 Mei 2012

yeahhhhh semalem jam 1an baru aja pulang dari perpisahan angkatan gue di jogjaaa:D what a unforgetable daaayyy hehe. perjalanan berangkat gitu2 aja seru dijalannya curhat2 banyak sama temen curhat baru ajijah:D heehe ganyangka bisa curhat sama dia dan dia juga jadi cerita banyak ke gue:D. sempet ngadet diberangkat karena rebutan hape sama rehan-_- as usual-_- tapi akhirnya boleh dan itu lumayan bikin tenang di beranggkat.. udah tuh berangkat dah.. sebenernya gue agak nyesel curhat ini semua bukan karena nyesel curhat sama azizah, gue jadi keinget lagi semua masalah2 gue.. tentang dia dan membuat gue terjebak disitu sampe sampe-_- sampe di borobudur yaitu tujuan pertama.. mata, pikiran gue agak terbagi2 yaitu konsen sama temen2 sama nyari dia-_- gue cuma mau liat entah kenapa!! itu ngebuat gue sedih tapinya:(. sampe hotel akhirnya.. yes im still looking for him and finnaly i see him clearly.. i do miss him but i do want to puch his face well that time-_- and thenn........................ the farrewel party begin, kelas gue tampil di malem keakraban kemaren dengan seruuuu!!! mantep bangga banget gue sama kelas gue!!!!!!! :") saranghaeyo 9Abracadraa hehe, pas tampil gue lumayan gak inget dia;) tapi pas selesai.. itu mungkin puncak2nya gue emosi sama dia dan satu orang lagi... mereka berdua bener2 ada terus di sejauh gua memandang...  sumpah itu emosi gua bener2 ada diujung tanduk mana gua lagi dapet.. ketemu yang cewenya aja gue udah teriak2 "ahelaah!" kalo ketemu dia masih bisa nahan emosi gua secara dia cowo masa iya teriak2kin-_- di sekolah juga kan gaboleh ngobrol sama cowo. malem itu gue cerita sama devi saama angel sampe gue kopral2 di kasur untuk pertama kalinya:(, akhirnya gue tidur jam setengah 3 karena menyesal telah sayang sama orang yang salah:"). hari kedua disana masih galau paginya sampe di parangtritis yang akhirnya gue memandang dia lurus dengan tajem gue coba nusuk muka dia pake pandangan gue tapi kejauhan jadi gue cuma bisa nyengkerem pasir sampe akhirnya gue lempar ke arah temen2 gue-_- terus sampe malemnya kita ke malioboro di becak risya bilang "lu berubah tau sah semenjak sama dia gini lo jadi ganas.. takut gua-_-" gua sadar betapa ganasnya gua kalo ada dia, dia bener2 yang bikin gue ganas bahkan sampe hari perpisahan2 ginicoba:"( tapi malem itu devi ngehentak gue dengan "inget ALLAH sah" jleb detik itu juga hati gua kayak disetrum dan badan gua kerasa bangun lagi.. gue udah lupa sama Allah selama galau2an kemaren.. betapa peleh dan gatau lagi disebut apa gue telah ngebuang waktu2 indah gue dengan gini.. maafin gue jogja.. hari2 perpisahan yang udah gue lewati dengan salah:( tapi gue masih sadar kok saat2 itu meskipun hati gue gak sadar.. temen2 gue jauh lebih berharga!!... hari terakhir di jogjaa alhamdulillah paginya gue udah lupa sama galau2an itu dan mengaku sama azizah gue udah tau tujuan gue:") ayo zaah lu juga haruss:") lets see a brighter day and future!! lets fight for them:")
farrewel party at jogja
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farrewel party at jogja

Rabu, 16 Mei 2012

gue belom bisa main gitar, tapi cita2 pendek didepan sekarang ini yaitu gue harus main gitar di perpisahan nanti!  sekarang gue otw belajarrr my friend salsa is the most kind one she will teach mee!! yes i dont know why-_--- i have toooo!!fighting!
main gitarr
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main gitarr

love for me, is a easy thing who make uneasy situation which mean love is just easy in a beginning.. and who know it will be happy ending or cry ending. i havent got many experience about love.. yes-_- absolutely heeehe i dont know why i use to dont know about that.. i just like someone.. adore someone well just that. but trully i just realize what is love  when im 14 years old.. now im 15.. hihi its late maybe but you know sampe sekarang pun pengalaman percintaan gue masih dikit.. belom yang bervariasi gitu tapi kan temen2 gue kagak.. jadinya kita belajar dari mereka aja haha.. seru loh ada di tengah2 temen2 yang lagi pada pacaran terus mereka curhat ke kita.. hihi. gue belajar banyak hal.. sampe akhirnya sekarang gue lagi belajar tentang kisah gue sendiri. Menurut prinsip gue, im not that scared but i will scared you slowly maksudnya gue gak banyak bergerak dan gak marah segitu hebat.. tapi kalo ngelunjak pelan2 gue abisin. haha kenapa gue tibatiba berprinsip begitu karna kisah gue yang sekarang ini menuntun gue supaya gitu, gue jadi emosehan garagara ini, gue belom pernah loh gini.. dan mungkin ini juga gak akan terjadi lama lama si-_- hihi cuma beneran, ini menuntut gue supaya galak. kisah ini membuat gue marah. notice that i'm never get angry this hard i think-_- dari kemaren yang ada dipikiran gue "awas lo! awas lo" gitu2 mulu-_--- buset lo apain si gue, ampe kayak gitu-_- temen gue ngomong "sian deeh" gitu aja gue ngamuk2 gajelas. njir hebat lo, awas aja lo *kan mulai lagi* intinya gue gak akan berlama lama emosian gini... i promise!. now i realize my first or what third or i dont know love story is like this.... i'll never forget this, dont worry.. but still awas aja lo!
attacker
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attacker

Senin, 14 Mei 2012

happy birthday piniconggggg pinisaaa:D makin makinnn!! semoga semoga semoganya terkabul aaaammminnnn:D

                                   
                                                                       pini 14th birthdaay

                             
                                                                   pini now


happy birthday pinicongg
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happy birthday pinicongg

many things happening since that day, you know its too many.. until i even cant find who i'ma.. but i know i was gone to far but i need to get back:").. talking about out tittle.. i've never been.. im going to tell i've never been this angry to people specially because of boys.. damn! i hate it actually but she... this is not jealousy but dia tuh mendapatkan posisi ter enak di situasi ini.. dan parahnya gue yang kena imbasnya kalo situasi ini goyang-_- emang gue apaan? cuma garagara dia galauin lo gua kena-_- ett gua cuma tamu yang perlu dijamu perasaan dah... ga harus join this damn-_- astaghfrullah.... im just so mad if someone said im apart of it.. im going to leave im sorry.. this is not my bussiness...
gue gak pernah kayak gini
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gue gak pernah kayak gini

Minggu, 13 Mei 2012

he came into my life with a plan on my mind, yes i dont know why im guessing this all already but theres a thing that i never thought at all happening-_- its happening oh my god.. for me this is off limit! im not like that yes that was like somene else.. okay im not going to talk about the akibat im talking something else.. i'ma karma or something-_- i like him so much.. seems to be but why i dont think so-_- but why i even wont let him go at all.. he's so kind, loving me from all he had,caring,and protecting but.. he's not just give that to me-_- he gave that to someone else.. jealous? yes that was wajar but its so pain.. he's not mine.. yes mention that on mind! i just wanna share this cause its happpening now.. its hurt hearing he's telling me something.. not weird.. just unbelievable and hurt me alot.. he just did a thing that almost making he forget me---_______--- dia itu dewasa sekali kadang kadang, tapi dia berubah jadi labill lagi.. dan dia yang lupa kedewasaannya kadang2. sebenarnya ini gak harus terjadi tapi cuma pengen bilang aja enak banget ya jadi she.. she got it, she got him more than anyone.. she got his love, his almost everything, should i say more than me? i dont know but i dont want to call this jealous.. this is just batin thing.. lo curang aja:"D curangnya sama kayak yang waktu  itu gue ceritainlaah.. curangnya poll wkwk:p sudahlahh, im looking so labil if still saying jealous-_- im not jealous im just scared.. a thing happening to me a year ago is happening again-_- haha i hate that, im scared if those happening again... and em i wanna say she's position is so nice.... i think:p.. haha sekarang gini ajadeh gue maunya apa-_- wk done done done!! hei like this song?  i dont know its seems match with my mind now haha
Takut - BLINK


Aku juga ingin jatuh cinta
Seperti yang lainnya
Kini saatnya untuk jatuh cinta
Karna dia nyatakan cinta


Tapi Kutakut-takut jatuh cinta
Takut-takut patah hatinya
Takut-takut jadi gila
Karena cinta


Takut-takut jatuh cinta
Takut-takut patah hatinya
Takut-takut jadi gila
Karena cinta


Namun bimbang kini yang kurasa
Akankah dia trus setia
Atau hanya untuk sementara
Membuat Aku Kecewa


Tapi Ku takut-takut jatuh cinta
Takut-takut patah hatinya
Takut-takut jadi gila
Karena cinta


kut-takut jatuh cinta
Takut-takut patah hatinya
Takut-takut jadi gila
Karena cinta
:"D
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:"D

inget lagunya sherina yang 'Andai aku t'lah dewasa  Ingin aku persembahkan 
Semurni cintamu, setulus kasih sayangmu  Kau s'lalu ku cinta.....'' "Ku tahu kau berharap 
Dalam do'amu Ku tahu kau berjaga  Dalam langkahku Ku tahu s'lalu cinta Dalam senyummu Oh Oh Tuhan Kau kupinta...  Bahagiakan mereka sepertiku'" ne.. this song is only for my mommy and daddy, sekarang gue ngerasa banyak banget salah.. salah sama Allah.. sama umi abi juga.. isah janji isah bakal menjadi isah yang kayak dulu bayi lagi:D hehehe gatau kenapa seneng liat gue bayi.. lucu banget tapi disayang dan bikin orang sayang sama gue:"D ahaha i promise i'll make you proud and happy..:"D andai aku udah dewasaaaa hehe aku mau ngelakuin semuanya buat abi sama yumii hehe
Andai.. aku tlah dewasa
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Andai.. aku tlah dewasa

Minggu, 06 Mei 2012

[Beyonce]
There are times I find it hard to sleep at night
We are living through such trouble times
And every child that reaches out
For someone to hold
For one moment
They become my own

And how can I pretend that I don't know
What's going on?
When every second
And every minute
Another soul is gone

And I believe that in my life
I will see
An end to hopelessness
Or giving up
Or suffering

Then we all stand together this one time
Then no one will get left behind
And stand up for life
Stand up
And here me sing
Stand up
For love

[Kelly]
Im inspired
And hope
For each and everyday
That's how I know that things are going to change
So how can I pretend that I don't know
What's going on?
When every second
And every minute
Another soul is gone

And I believe that in my life
I will see
An end to hopelessness
Or giving up
Or suffering

If we all stand together this one time
Then no one will get left behind
And stand up for life
Stand up
For love

[Michelle]
And it all starts right here
And it starts right now
One person stand up man!
And the rest will follow
From the forgotten
And From the Unloved

Im gonna sing this song,

And I believe
That in my life
I will see
An end to hopelessness
Or giving up
Or suffering

If we all stand together this one time
Then no one will get left behind
And stand up
for life
stand up
and sing
Stand up
For love
stand up - destiny child
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stand up - destiny child