Senin, 24 Juni 2013
Selasa, 11 Juni 2013
life is too hard, when im trying to keep my self in the save area. Situations underesetimate me and kick me out. But now when im out, situations straching me down. What do you want from me?...im just a first year senior higschool girl what do you expect?. Gue baru sadar, gue udah melakukam terlalu banyak kesalaham sama kekhilafan yg disengaja. Gue gak mikir banget. Allah udah ngasih segini banyak nikmat buat gue tapi gue nya,still went sad with my own fault that i wont blame my self with it. My dad word lastnight was shaking me DAMN real. Im not really remember all of it but the point is "we should let everythig happen it self by smiling, if something bad happen... we cant do anything,why scared?... and in my school case. We have to see the result, not the thing that just happen amd we regret it too much. Now..... i wont be sad again EVER. I dont care what youll said about my score... i do that with my own ability and effort.... i should be sooooo damn proud. Gue gak peduli masuk ipa berapa aja nanti, priority is always science 1 but God know what's the best for me.... Allah is soooo kind:")
Sabtu, 01 Juni 2013
Last Final or whatever okay UKK. ujian kenaikan kelas
that word,is pretty serious statemen for me. well know im a senior high school first year
that will move to the next year. Penjurusan... i bettter do an harry potter owl text. divergent aptitute test than this hahaha engga juga ding. i've been trough a pretty hard time these year, banyak hal yang gak pernah gue duga terjadi sekarang.. sma ini ga semudah yang keliatannya di tv... but now is, where should i start. ini bakal jadi awal baru. belajar gue harua santai tapi paham, sekarang. i dont care anymorw about what they'll said.. im scared my self already. this is scary ya Allah, but i have to past this.. please stay with me ya Allah:"3...
Sabtu, 18 Mei 2013
The day is actually nicer... even i can feel that the position of me is not too save. I wanna be with them. Thats the point. And em,i wish i was.. you know... think about this since the beginning.. okay i wont let my tears drop so forget that. On my head right now is, i dont have to push that harsh. But i have to be focus. I have one last chance. Last chance to got the best i wish. God know the best for me. I knew that. This is hard, i know. Specially for me. But there i can see something that i hope making me betteer. Bismillahirrahmanirrahim......
Kamis, 09 Mei 2013
Jumat, 19 April 2013
Okay, i've been in a hard day today. Hearing that those sh*t betrayer, how could they do that to yangti? Ini bikin gue bukan naik darah lagi. Gak sinkron udah hati,mulut sama kepala. Tapi setelah seharian yg penuh emosi gue sadar.. those backstabber are not just for teenagers world, an many sin adult like them got it too.. sorry if i cant control my word:( im just soo much much dissapointed. Astaghfirullah... then those backstabber at my OWN big family come again:"3, i totally know they dont like my laziness and my messy house, but they DONT KNOW how extraordinary is my house... im not and cannot be crying facing this day.. my tears are like.. gak sebanding sama kesedihan gue /asik/ gimana si denger nenek kesayangan lo di omongin dibelakang sama orang2 yang nenek lo sayang gila2an. Kampret ah. Then your angel mommy and daddy dikata2in sama tante2 lu?. Pengen bunuh diri gak si?hahaha lebay si tapi okay done:3 i know adult are fuck now, okay not all i believe that tapi gue sekarang udah cuma harus fokus sama yg gue pengen di hidup gue, TALK LESS DO MORE, AND PROOF not revenge sah thats just take a sin. Allah is giving extraordinary things to extraordinary people...:). Tapi kalo yg tentang yangti belom beres loh ya sampe meereka nyesel:3 kalo tentang umi abi digituin sih udah cukup jelas lah they TOTALLY dont such better than them haha. Maaf ya Allah abis orang2 itu kok begitu banget:( i love Allah more than any... fighting!:)