Words Are Dangerous

Minggu, 01 Desember 2013

i see everything turns not right. my feels. my condition. i know you cant see anything but i feel its weird. God am i way too far from you? or am i off limit?or am i annoying.. i only wishing for hapiness for my parents and me my self right now. happy is easy but hard to feel. i dont know what exactly i feel. i feel strange. i cant get any critic from people. i cant get any advice.. cause i feel they're not giving the best for me. right exactly now my dad was mad at me because...

Kamis, 26 September 2013

Kali kali lah

09.24

Kali kali lah

engga engga bukan galau kali kali aja mau ngepost tentang what i feel about my boyf wkwkwk since he doenst know wwkwk. Im not the type of girl who have so many wish to bbe come true on loves story,i do like people well maybe i love them but i didnt expect alot to have the person or what. Kinda 4 month ago theres a guy who i got a crush on confess to me. I was actually almost like em..... 'okayim not gonna like him anymore lets just take this as a friendship zone' bu then he...

Minggu, 08 September 2013

HAII

01.32

HAII

haiiii bloggie how is it? 3 month without me?hahah im not going anywhere actually-_- im just... having a not really great time to think... gue sudah memikirkan banyak tujuan hidup tapi masih ngambang dan belom terlaksana karena banyak penghalang. penghalangnya terlalu kuat, dan gue cuma bisa berdoa supaya penghalang ini cepet pergi. im still aisha who loves to write... here in highschool i found so many crazy moment... terakhir ngepost juni ya? juni itu... lagi liburan ya?great...

Senin, 24 Juni 2013

MY EVERYTHING

21.59

MY EVERYTHING

The loneliness of nights alonethe search for strength to carry onmy every hope has seemed to diemy eyes had no more tears to crythen like the sun shining up aboveyou surrounded me with your endless loveCoz all the things I couldn't see are now so clear to me You are my everythingNothing your love won't bringMy life is yours aloneThe only love I've ever knownYour spirit pulls...

smile sah

21.34

smile sah

i miss this feels. i feel no stupid things to think. its been along time i think, i didnt feel like this. i miss my past so much but that was kinda wasting time.. i have to move towars. weirdo you know, when you feel like you're on the right position all days, but in fact, you're totally in danger. that's what i feel in this first year of high school. i loved it, i like my friends,my class,the teachers is.. yaa not bad, the schools also. But i dont know, i dont like the situation...

Selasa, 11 Juni 2013

IM CHANGE

09.26

IM CHANGE

life is too hard, when im trying to keep my self in the save area. Situations underesetimate me and kick me out. But now when im out, situations straching me down. What do you want from me?...im just a first year senior higschool girl what do you expect?. Gue baru sadar, gue udah melakukam terlalu banyak kesalaham sama kekhilafan yg disengaja. Gue gak mikir banget. Allah udah ngasih segini banyak nikmat buat gue tapi gue nya,still went sad with my own fault that i wont blame...

Sabtu, 01 Juni 2013

UKK

10.30

UKK

Last Final or whatever okay UKK. ujian kenaikan kelas that word,is pretty serious statemen for me. well know im a senior high school first year that will move to the next year. Penjurusan... i bettter do an harry potter owl text. divergent aptitute test than this hahaha engga juga ding. i've been trough a pretty hard time these year, banyak hal yang gak pernah gue duga terjadi sekarang.. sma ini ga semudah yang keliatannya di tv... but now is, where should i start. ini bakal...

Sabtu, 18 Mei 2013

Guitar im still stuck here for you-__-

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Guitar im still stuck here for you-__-

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Okay

00.42

Okay

The day is actually nicer... even i can feel that the position of me is not too save. I wanna be with them. Thats the point. And em,i wish i was.. you know... think about this since the beginning.. okay i wont let my tears drop so forget that. On my head right now is, i dont have to push that harsh. But i have to be focus. I have one last chance. Last chance to got the best i wish. God know the best for me. I knew that. This is hard, i know. Specially for me. But there i can...

Kamis, 09 Mei 2013

how can i pretend that i dont know whats going on

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how can i pretend that i dont know whats going on

i got a nice day that day.. i thought.. but in the edge of the day i got a shit paper than change everything that moment. hasil psikotest saran penjurusan. that moment i forgot to think "saran" words.. cause the situation suddenly went out crazy. i got the words that i dont want. my head start to blowned up. i cant think again. my tears went out by them self..... that's the most sad moment i've felt i guess. gue gak mungkin dapet dan masuk jurusan itu. gue tau. gue gak berfikir...

Jumat, 19 April 2013

I dont care about how fuck are they:)

11.24

I dont care about how fuck are they:)

Okay, i've been in a hard day today. Hearing that those sh*t betrayer, how could they do that to yangti? Ini bikin gue bukan naik darah lagi. Gak sinkron udah hati,mulut sama kepala. Tapi setelah seharian yg penuh emosi gue sadar.. those backstabber are not just for teenagers world, an many sin adult like them got it too.. sorry if i cant control my word:( im just soo much much dissapointed. Astaghfirullah... then those backstabber at my OWN big family come again:"3, i totally...

Kamis, 18 April 2013

I never hate you dear Aisyah...

17.31

I never hate you dear Aisyah...

I dont wanna write u a long explanation.. A little bit flash back, i was the one who feel that u leave me since i'm no longer cant bring hadi to you or even just told u the nice story of him. Beside that, yes i felt that seeing you was like remembering him, since we had so much discussion about him. Hehe.. But thanks God its over now... i'm happy when i remember him lately n wish forever. And one thing for sure.... not him, not anyone and anything, can stop me from loving...

I'll be your little isa forever yangti

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I'll be your little isa forever yangti

I have a great grandma that you wont imagine i2t, she's my mommys mom, she's totally gave my mom just an amazing heart like hers. I call her yangti. She's annoyed me sometimes.. like she yell at me when i cant even get up from my bed, or she's looking at my lazziness.... me and my family are living with her, till i get to elementary school.and i'm back to live with her ALONE, when i was grade 5-6. 2 pretty hard years actually.. far from mommy, living with my straight gran7dma...

Sabtu, 13 April 2013

7 Dimensi

23.02

7 Dimensi

Author: Me my self:) Spoiler: well thisnis my schoolntask actualy.. but i know you dont wanna know it. ENJOY 7 Dimensi 10 hari semenjak siang yang bagaikan fatamorgana bagiku dan semua yang mengenalku. Mengawasi mereka dari dimensi berbeda itulah aku sekarang. 10 hari bukan waktu yang sebentar melihat jasadku dikelilingi airmata. Harusnya aku mendengar kata hatiku hari itu, bukan hati mereka. Alat alat yang menopang hidupku terus menyala lebih lama dari...

Jumat, 29 Maret 2013

check out this bokeh is amazinggg

09.26

check out this bokeh is amazinggg

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i was?

09.22

i was?

i always say that i live in a perfect life, my parents and all my bigfamily always love and support me. but when i take a look at my life, i was too wastingg time--_-. i supposed to still living in jakarta, not moving here-_- hehe tapi yasudahlah haha. kalo liat2 postingan gue dulu2._. gue lebay banget ya jadi anak-_-- tapi seru lah ada pengalaman idup. Now on my mind is, gimana caranya gua menikmati idup sebagai 16 year old girl...gua suka banget musik, pelajaran ipa, belajar...

i was look like her

09.16

i was look like her

she's close. but im scared to her. she's so look like when i was around elementary 6th grader. English language is my priority, keyboard is my everything about music.. my head was just Qur'an.. my mind only thinking about better things.. but now i feel like someone been look like me. and its you, you always makin me jealous.. you know that right? but im scare.. well now im change, im a teenanger now, but i always miss that moment.. you making me stuck there by the way.. well...

Jumat, 15 Maret 2013

A thousand years

10.14

A thousand years

I dont know what exactly on my mind, im just tired. Im tired thinking my score problem, i know allright this is just my own problem but i saw something unfair, and i feel i've been rejected by some parts, they underestimate me. Is this highschool? Is highschool friends is this hard? Is highschool lesson this pressure? No ofcourse i know that. Im just... im just tired, i dont need refreshing, i need someone to tell me that dont be worry about score. They know i love science more...

Kamis, 21 Februari 2013

i'll turn 16 tommorow

04.03

i'll turn 16 tommorow

arraseo, so these days is.. better than other day cause i havent came late to school yet this week hehe its kind of nice progreess:D, jadi begini, gua merasa sangat tua karena besok gua udah 16 taun tapi gua selalu bersyukur karena gua udah terlahir di dunia ini dan punya umi sama abi udah gak bisa pake kata kata lagi udah ngungkapinnya. jadi selama 16 taun ini sodara sodara... besok aja deh postnya sekarang gua mau unek unek dulu. hari ini ngeselin banget masa temen gua ada...

thing i dont care

03.56

thing i dont care

yap they said kepribadian itu bisa dinilai dari orang lain,meskipun gua juga menilai diri gua sendiri tapi gua percaya percaya aja kata orang lebih bener. gua itu sekarang sekarang ini lagi gak mikirin hal lain selain gimana caranya masuk ipa dan kalo bisa ipa 1 nanti kelas 11nya, harusnya si gua santai santai aja since kata orang2 sma is the precious moment ever though i havent feel it yet but i can smell i will soon haha-_- but please dont make it too long haha, high school...

Senin, 28 Januari 2013

HabibieAinun

10.05

HabibieAinun

wow i just watch it.. is kinda amazing film aigoooo.. hehe. gue telat banget nontonnya--_- bayangin itu film dipute udah dari awal januari gua baru nonton sekarang hff hehe tapi serius pantesan itu film rekor jutaan penonton dalam waktu cepet.. bagus banget filmnya, emang feelnya beda karena gua kan belom pernah nikah, tapi yang capslock dan stabiloin besar dari film itu adalah "PINTER" nya buat gua, betapa enaknya jadi orang pinter, gue bener2 jadi ngidolain professor BJ Habibie...

FAIRYTALES PART 2

09.57

FAIRYTALES PART 2

"oh here she is mom.." that.. maybe prince or whatever that guy is now scared me to death. "execuseme, who are you?" i said cleary and try to still polite before im trying to kick him in his face. "what? erena you are my sister" "what? but sorry i think im dreaming now." "oh yes because of that spell you just like this sis.. let me explain to you later but we have to see mom first now comeone run.." he still holding my hand and running now.. but suddenly i saw a black light...

Jumat, 25 Januari 2013

FAIRYTALES Part 1

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FAIRYTALES Part 1

"Mom, you dont have to worry that much i'm not 6 anymore" i growled. "Chloe im not gonna say it twice, go home before 12pm or we gonna leave you" okay mom is little bit annoying now. "okay okay allright.. im on my way" things same, i'll never get some peace when im stick with my friends, and now its the first day of winter holiday, what do you expect except hanging out or having fun with the snow with your friends?.. but when i just gonna make it.. you know. "Im Home......"...

Kamis, 24 Januari 2013

i dont like this god:(

09.55

i dont like this god:(

god.. these days i feel so lonely, i feel like i've been so pressure:( mollayo god.. this studyness... this situatin making me down:( im so much care about my future but thi thing scared me god:( ya Allah i know you hrere with me:( please makin me strong ya Allah::(.. no matter wha happen i have to face it and always.. i hate when im down like this:(... i dont know why ya Allah.. i feel like.. i cant really explain, its weird..worse..:( im scared alot with many thought.. specially...

Jumat, 11 Januari 2013

More Than This - ONE DIRECTION

10.03

More Than This - ONE DIRECTION

I'm brokenDo you hear meI'm blindedCause you are everything I seeI'm dancing, aloneI'm prayingThat your heart will just turn aroundAnd as I walk up to your doorMy eye turns to face the floorCause I can't look you in the eyes and sayWhen he open his armsAnd holds you close tonightIt just won't feel rightCause I can love you more than this, yeahWhen he lays you down, I might just die insideIt just don't feel rightCause I can love you more than thisCan love you more than thisIf...

I Miss that moment

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