Sabtu, 01 Juni 2013

Last Final or whatever okay UKK. ujian kenaikan kelas

that word,is pretty serious statemen for me. well know im a senior high school first year
that will move to the next year. Penjurusan... i bettter do an harry potter owl text. divergent aptitute test than this hahaha engga juga ding. i've been trough a pretty hard time these year, banyak hal yang gak pernah gue duga terjadi sekarang.. sma ini ga semudah yang keliatannya di tv... but now is, where should i start. ini bakal jadi awal baru. belajar gue harua santai tapi paham, sekarang. i dont care anymorw about what they'll said.. im scared my self already. this is scary ya Allah, but i have to past this.. please stay with me ya Allah:"3...

UKK
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UKK

Sabtu, 18 Mei 2013

Guitar im still stuck here for you-__-
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Guitar im still stuck here for you-__-

The day is actually nicer... even i can feel that the position of me is not too save. I wanna be with them. Thats the point. And em,i wish i was.. you know... think about this since the beginning.. okay i wont let my tears drop so forget that. On my head right now is, i dont have to push that harsh. But i have to be focus. I have one last chance. Last chance to got the best i wish. God know the best for me. I knew that. This is hard, i know. Specially for me. But there i can see something that i hope making me betteer. Bismillahirrahmanirrahim......

Okay
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Okay

Kamis, 09 Mei 2013

i got a nice day that day.. i thought.. but in the edge of the day i got a shit paper than change everything that moment. hasil psikotest saran penjurusan. that moment i forgot to think "saran" words.. cause the situation suddenly went out crazy. i got the words that i dont want. my head start to blowned up. i cant think again. my tears went out by them self..... that's the most sad moment i've felt i guess. gue gak mungkin dapet dan masuk jurusan itu. gue tau. gue gak berfikir itu masih saran dan masih ada kesempatan rapot... gue gabisa mikir saat itu. rasanya gue mau obrak abrik semua yang ada diepaan gue.apalagi guru bk sekolah yang kata2nya astaghfirullah nyakitin:" i wont see him again. this is actually just gonna be fine. but i dont know:(... but now i know God have an amazing plan for me... i should STUDY HARDDDDDDD TO THE DEATH now i know that... i'll just enjoy this.. and guess what.. this morning i got some breaking damn news again... tapi sudahlah meskipun gue anggap ini rushed week for me. this is the beginning of everything amazing in my life:). ya Allah you still there with me isnt?:"....
how can i pretend that i dont know whats going on
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how can i pretend that i dont know whats going on

Jumat, 19 April 2013

Okay, i've been in a hard day today. Hearing that those sh*t betrayer, how could they do that to yangti? Ini bikin gue bukan naik darah lagi. Gak sinkron udah hati,mulut sama kepala. Tapi setelah seharian yg penuh emosi gue sadar.. those backstabber are not just for teenagers world, an many sin adult like them got it too.. sorry if i cant control my word:( im just soo much much dissapointed. Astaghfirullah... then those backstabber at my OWN big family come again:"3, i totally know they dont like my laziness and my messy house, but they DONT KNOW how extraordinary is my house... im not and cannot be crying facing this day.. my tears are like.. gak sebanding sama kesedihan gue /asik/ gimana si denger nenek kesayangan lo di omongin dibelakang sama orang2 yang nenek lo sayang gila2an. Kampret ah. Then your angel mommy and daddy dikata2in sama tante2 lu?. Pengen bunuh diri gak si?hahaha lebay si tapi okay done:3 i know adult are fuck now, okay not all i believe that tapi gue sekarang udah cuma harus fokus sama yg gue pengen di hidup gue, TALK LESS DO MORE, AND PROOF not revenge sah thats just take a sin. Allah is giving extraordinary things to extraordinary people...:). Tapi kalo yg tentang yangti belom beres loh ya sampe meereka nyesel:3 kalo tentang umi abi digituin sih udah cukup jelas lah they TOTALLY dont such better than them haha. Maaf ya Allah abis orang2 itu kok begitu banget:( i love Allah more than any... fighting!:)

I dont care about how fuck are they:)
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I dont care about how fuck are they:)

Kamis, 18 April 2013

I dont wanna write u a long explanation..

A little bit flash back, i was the one who feel that u leave me since i'm no longer cant bring hadi to you or even just told u the nice story of him.
Beside that, yes i felt that seeing you was like remembering him, since we had so much discussion about him. Hehe..

But thanks God its over now... i'm happy when i remember him lately n wish forever.

And one thing for sure.... not him, not anyone and anything, can stop me from loving you and always missing you! U'r so cute, adorable n interesting to be hate!!! ;-*

Love u for always,
Wina Alfazos

I never hate you dear Aisyah...
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I never hate you dear Aisyah...

I have a great grandma that you wont imagine i2t, she's my mommys mom, she's totally gave my mom just an amazing heart like hers. I call her yangti. She's annoyed me sometimes.. like she yell at me when i cant even get up from my bed, or she's looking at my lazziness....
me and my family are living with her, till i get to elementary school.and i'm back to live with her ALONE, when i was grade 5-6. 2 pretty hard years actually.. far from mommy, living with my straight gran7dma n grandpa..
But thats gonna be one of the best moment in my life.. i cant explain how big is my yangti's love that i feel... whatever happens, i'll always love her with all my heart... God.. thank 0s1you so much for giving me the best yangti ever... she made my moms here and she is the best too... then my amazing ummi met my great daddy and they got me...
Ya Allah... maybe im too much wasting my time complaining my life, but really i just realized that you gave me such a great great life.... the point is.... i thank God a lot for this amazing everything i have with yangti around.:3

I'll be your little isa forever yangti
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I'll be your little isa forever yangti